my testimony harriet

Under pressure of the spirit I went home from camp meeting , after a stirring message by James Andrews on surrendering to God. I remember that day well, I was setting at the sewing machine when; I ask of God how can I "surrender to God with out a mental reservation" which was the message from James; my mind struggled with the thoughts; how can I within my mind surrender to God with my mind? His answer came to me as a parab; "It is likened unto a man who's invented something that desolves everthing!" My mind thought in an instant; what would he hold it in? place it on the ground? hold it in a container, or in his hands? everything would be desolved. Instaneously all at once! His answer was, and my understanding of the same was, "with God all things are possible " and do not be afraid to preach it and let God work out the effects of it in every ones spirit and soul. It was made clear to me that this that God has revealed; for to preach to every man with the wording "Surrender to God without a mental reservation" is the doctrin we should hold too and we should not fear that it will become just an understanding; because it will be used of God to desolve all understandings . It will desolve even itself leaving only GOD- GOD- GOD.
I was  impressied that I was to tell them at campmeeting, not to be afraid to preach it as God has given it and leave it with Him as to the effects. James knew so clearly that everything God gives to man he takes into his own understanding, takes possesion of it and builds himself up in it and it becomes darkness to him. So he was fearful that this too would become darkness to man and he was always cautious of this, warned us of this, wanting only God to surfive. but, this which God has given, we can not turn into darkness. for it is the light itself, and where the light is there is no darkness!
I know I was timmid and fearful of the face of man and did not do as I was inspiried; to openly and strongly speak of this which God had given to me, enought so as to releave any sence of withdrawing of the truth as God had given it for fear it might become darkness.
I only pray; that God will desolve all of the carnal mind in me and the words that I write and the meditations of my heart, be exceptable in His sight. Oh, Lord, my strength and my redeemer.
"Consecrate Me Now To thy Service, Lord, by the power of grace devine, Let my soul look up with a steedfast hope, and my will be lost in thine" 
( It was the morning of January 29 2012 that I awoke to the words "ye must be born again, "  and soon followed was "born of the Spirit"   I beleive they  were from the spirit of god and that he will cloth them with Flesh,  But not Flesh as we know it,  but with spiritual flesh, )